Matters of the {HEART} vs {LIE}...

Is there a difference in LIES? A simple little needless lie could mess up everything beautiful to you. A beautiful bond you have with someone can disappear after one lie! I lied to my "him"! I have no doubt he's lied to me before and I've witnessed it just never said anything. He has trust issues and although he may not have trusted me with everything, I feel like he did feel that I was the one important person in his life that he could trust more then most! Now I lied about something soooo small and he can't get it out of his head! I wish there was a way I could have a do over and just tell him the truth but I can't!!

There is so much about us that is wrong, I know it can't last forever but we were happy!! The closest to being happy I have ever been. So many people survive from lies and become bigger and better then ever, but we aren't most people. It bothers me to have put us in this position but we're here! I tried to make him trust me by saying it was so small and blah, blah, blah... But truth is I was wrong!!! It was a LIE! I tried to apologize but he has no reason to forgive me. The fact that I know I lied and his reaction to people who lie to him makes me know I gotta let go... I don't know if this would be Sabotage but I don't want him to wonder if every time I open my mouth I'm just lying! I don't want him to doubt me!

I honestly don't know what to do and I am tired of trying to wreck my brain. The right thing to do is to just let him go because I KNOW HIM!! I don't want the awkward feelings that's coming next. I don't wanna be afraid to even speak not knowing what he is thinking! But "MY HEART WON'T DO WHAT MY MIND TELL'S IT TO..."

Its so funny because I was just talking to him about how much better we are and with one sentence I ruined our progression, and I just can't go back to square 1!



Matters of the heart are ALWAYS the hardest!

I wish I could just know that he will forgive and forget, but its just not realistic...

#LIFE

What the What?? Volume 1: My WTF Moments of the Week

Sooooo their just gone give Suri Cruz penis shaped gummi bears?? Thats GREAT momming right there!! SMH

Annnndddddd Plies you have a brand new IRON Charm for your necklace? Ok I get it your trying to be original but ummmm...

I mean I've gone to Walmart a little messy but this is str8 up nasty SMH..

PIMP's shop at Walmart?? This OLD PIMP has me confused where's his WHORES???

Promise to remain TRUE: Sleeping with the ENEMY 3/21/2011

Let me get right on it. I have a 5 year old son. This is my first child and I am so happy because this is what I wanted since I was 10 years old to be a wife and, mother. I’ve got my ring and my baby, my life sounds like its going good right; right? The only problem is I don’t know who my son’s father is. Now I have kept that secret and planned on taking it to my grave until my son has come up with medical complications. They are wanting to test my blood and my husbands incase he needs blood we’d be the first to give him what he needs if we match. I am so scared and I don’t know what to do. I WILL DO ANYTHING FOR MY SON. He is my world. I’ve already had my blood taken and I’m not a match so bring on the drama. The “other” guy has always known that he maybe the father and he sends me money and things for my son. I know I shouldn’t be taking this behind my husbands back because he’s a great man. But the way I see it my son is benefitting from having 2 dads because he can get any and everything he wants. He won’t have to grow up wanting or needing for anything. This isn’t even the half because the other guy is my husband’s worst enemy! I know what your thinking but my husband and I were at a very bad place when I slept with his enemy. And since I am putting it all out there I might as well say that I still sleep with his enemy from time to time. I know I am only digging a deeper grave but I love them both. They are excellent to my son. My fear is that it’s about to come out because in my heart I know my son’s father is really not my husbands. I’m deathly afraid of how this is going to turn out. What should I do?
Sincerly,
Lost and Confused
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My Dearest Lost and Confused,
          GIRL YOU SHOULD HAVE SAID SINCERLY SLEEPING WITH THE ENEMY, BECAUSE THAT IS INDEED WHAT YOUR DOING!! My grandma always says what’s done in the dark will ALWAYS come to the LIGHT??? Here’s the light, your son is SICK! Now you have to have blood work done and you don’t match. You are absolutely right here comes the drama!! You and I both know that your husband isn’t the father. I think that he would have been pissed and disgusted knowing that he’s been raising someone else’s child for 5 years, but for it to be his ENEMY!! Girl if he is anything like the guys I know you better run for your life! I try my hardest not to judge people so you don’t have to worry about me judging you. But I do speak my mind and I will give you the business!! There are so many women in the world that want what you have a loving husband and a beautiful child, and you have taken that and ruined it. Lets break this thing down now:

**Your sleeping with another man??? What part of the game is that? I understand you were going through a rough patch, but why do women insist on sleeping with someone because your going through it with your spouse. I know we as woman don’t want to be judged any differently then men but the FACT is we ARE!! We can’t do what they do and you really shouldn’t want to. You should have taken that time to evaluate yourself and decide if you want to continue to be in that relationship and what should you two work on to make it better instead of spreading those legs.

** The other guy is his ENEMY??? Are you kidding me is this some kind of joke? Ok so you slept with someone else… There are millions of guys and you chose the guy he HATES??? I know you know they were enemies you’re his wife so instead of sleeping with the enemy you should have been riding with your husband if they got beef then you got beef with him too. How do you let him swindle you into sleeping with him? You WANTED to and still is. Which makes me think you can’t turn a whore into a housewife!!

** The enemy knows he’s the baby daddy and he’s laughing at your husband and you. You accept gifts from him because YOU know he IS the dad. You also accept them because your not INDEPENDENT or logical. Be ambitious help your husband get everything your child needs instead of playing with the enemy. Like Jacki-o Said “It’s not what you do; it’s how you do the sh*t!’’

**Girl gone head and let that cat out the bag work on getting your baby better because he’s the innocent person in this situation. He didn’t ask to be here so the mess you’ve caused yourself can be put on hold until your son is all better. But please believe any real man is going to SNAP and that time will come!! SMH what a mess you’ve created. Get some strength and class about you babygirl. Do cheat yourself. Strive for better… It’s only right!! As always "I PROMISE TO REMAIN TRUE!!’’


**Take a listen to the Jacki-o song sleeping with the enemy this is YOU all DAY!!!***

Loving my sisters ALWAYS,
ForeverTrue

Loyalty or Foolishness??

This young sister is crying because she can't go home! The reason is because she won't snitch! This young lady has so much potential and has the opportunity to be a successful woman instead she is choosing not to snitch! I'm not sure how she got herself in this situation, nor am I sure if she is just doing this out of loyalty or she's just scared?? But she's here now and I don't know how she is going to get herself out of this. Just seeing the picture breaks my heart because she looks so lost and confused!! A perfect example of defining yourself and not letting a man define you!! No matter if she is only 17. This is something we as older black women must plant into our daughters and little girls head! Be better than your situation where you came from DOES NOT DEFINE WHERE YOUR GOING!!!!

Per Bossip :

Afrika Owes was sobbing but she was still not snitching. Had the 17-year-old been snitching, had the prosecutor been able to say that this young woman was remorseful and fully cooperating with the investigation, then Friday’s bail hearing almost certainly would have ended differently. The judge would very likely have approved the esteemed Rev. Calvin Butts’ offer to post $50,000 of his church’s funds as her bail. And Owes would then have been able to go home rather than back to Rikers Island pending a bail hearing that is an interminable two weeks away.

Maybe she is not snitching out of fear; several members of the 137th St. Crew are still at large. Maybe she is keeping silent out of some misguided street ethic against snitching that is reinforced by rap songs and videos. Most likely she is not cooperating out of misplaced loyalty to her boyfriend, Jaquan Layne, aka “Jay Cash” or simply “Jay.” He is the lead name in the indictment and is said to be head of the crew. Owes could not snitch without snitching on Jay, and she seems to feel a too-blind allegiance to him. Such devotion is not rare among teenage girls who have yet to learn the stupendously selfish ways of males.

The crimes with which Owes is charged were essentially errands for Layne. She was doing the bidding of the crew’s leader the way a girl in other circumstances might for the captain of the high school football team. She carried his 9-mm. for him when she just was 16, complaining at one recorded moment that it is “too heavy,” but in the way of a teen not worrying that she was putting her immediate freedom and ultimate future in jeopardy. Also in the way of a teen, she failed to consider that Layne would never put her in that position if he had any real regard for her. Layne even presses her to change her college goals to fit his plan to move his drug operation to Pennsylvania, where the competition is not so fierce. Owes initially objects, telling him she hopes to attend either Columbia or NYU. She then gives in, saying she supposes she could always apply to Penn. After all, if she went to college in New York, how could she carry his gun and deliver messages for him in Pennsylvania?

Even now, when it appears that she may be matriculating in prison, Owes remains dismayingly loyal. On its part, the District Attorney’s Office cannot cut Owes a break just because she is female or because she is uncommonly bright or because she briefly attended a prestigious prep school. A stray bullet from a gun can kill a youngster just as dead, whoever carries it around. If Owes were a male with lower test scores charged with carrying a gun and furthering a drug operation, you can be sure that Rep. Charlie Rangel would not have been in court to show his support. Rangel could not get her sprung. Nor could Butts. But Layne could. He could use the same persuasive charms that got her into jail to get her out. He need only convince her to cooperate. On his part, Layne would be taking a new direction by doing something decent. He does not seem to be much of a drug kingpin. Even his moniker “Jay Cash” smacks of a wanna-be more than a true gangsta. My guess is he wanted to go to Pennsylvania because he could not make it in New York, even in crime. Owes could still make it here in myriad legitimate ways, and Layne ought to give her a chance. Snitching isn’t really snitching if the person you are snitching on tells you to do it.

Promise To Remain True: 3/07/2011 Money or Sex???

Ms. True,
        I need help on how to tell my husband I’m leaving him for his best friend. I don’t really know how I got here but I am and now there’s no turning back. My husband is a wonderful man but he can’t satisfy me like his best friend can. My husband is always working and he is a great provider but I am a woman with needs. My husband travels a lot on business and he started sending his best friend to check on us when he is out of the country on business. At first when his best friend would come around it was all totally innocent. I mean he really isn’t even my type so I kept going like normal. But the more my husband was gone the more he came around and we started sparking up conversations and one day we had sex. Now a year and a half later I’m still here having the best sex of my life. Being in the same bed with my husband turns my stomach. When he touches me I just want to die. I have no love for him or his best friend and he shouldn’t have left us all those times. My only problem is his best friend doesn’t make half the money my husband makes and it’s more than likely if I leave my husband and live with his best friend I will be the main bread winner. Truthfully I don’t want to be. I feel like for all those times my husband was away on business I deserve the money given. I deserve the thrill and all the money that comes with being in a relationship like this. I guess you can say I’m torn between the best sex ever and the money. His best friend told me he loves me and I just laughed. This is only good sex honey. Don’t judge me try walking a mile in my shoes before you start that bullshit. Just help me decide how I am gone do this?
Sincerely,
Money or Sex
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Money or Sex,

        I PROMISE TO REMAIN TRUE!!! Are you kidding me?? This is the exact ish I talk about all the time about women who don’t respect themselves and their relationships. Its women that do things like this that make me so disgusted. First off you came to me with this drama then you say to walk a mile in your shoes before I say anything??? Are you kidding me??? SMFH don’t jump yo a** in the water if you can’t swim! As a woman you should have a little bit more respect for yourself then to even put yourself in a situation like this. I made a list of things that made me say wow!!

        You slept with his best friend.

        Your not even in love with either party involved.

        Laying next to your husband TURNS YOUR STOMACH??

        You DESERVE all the thrills and money that come with a   

         relationship like this??

        Your only major decision is to stay with the money or sex??

        You have 2 men who are in love with you and you laugh?

        Emotions aren’t the least bit of your concern.

Honey HIV/AIDS is REAL!!!!! Please don’t play yourself. You need to do some heavy soul searching and really think about why you are trying to play with these men and their emotions. It’s hard for a man to love and you have two; yet you’re not satisfied!! When did it become cute to be a gold digger? Last I checked I love being an INDEPENDENT BLACK WOMAN, or just an INDEPENDENT WOMAN. You should try it sometimes there’s nothing better boo! It’s a dangerous game you’re playing when it comes to love and then there’s a friendship involved. I hope you don’t have any children especially not any daughters because; this is one HELL OF AN EXAMPLE FOR HER!!!! How about you leave both guys alone and concentrate on you. Find out why you need a man to validate you! Why you can’t depend on yourself and be satisfied. Why you would risk your life and health. Try and Love yourself first!!!!!! Do better by you and if you have kids LEAD BY EXAMPLE!!!

**Smooches**

With all the love in the world

Patience is a Virtue!!!

Patience is a virtue!!! I don't understand what he was so mad at... I think this is a lesson learned!!

Fantasia... Overdose???

According to TMZ:

Fantasia Barrino was rushed to a North Carolina hospital last night where she was treated for a “medication overdose,” this according to WCNC.com.

According to the report, Barrino was taken to Carolinas Medical Center-Pineville around 8:55 PM … the report says her condition was not life-threatening.

It’s unclear whether the OD was intentional or accidental.

Fantasia's Official statement:

Fantasia has always been an open book. Honesty, self-respect, and personal responsibility are values she wears proudly.

Fantasia believed Mr. Cook when he told her he was not happy in his marriage and his heart was not in it. She believed him when he told her he and Mrs. Cook separated in the late summer of 2009. She believed Mr. Cook when he told her he lived elsewhere.

He even took her there. One of Mr. Cook’s most redeeming qualities was his complete devotion to his children. Fantasia fell in love with Mr. Cook and believed that he loved her.

Fantasia and Mr. Cook dated on and off for about eleven months. The pressure of the constant media attention was hard on their relationship. Fantasia gave inconsistent interviews about the status of her relationship with Mr. Cook because sometimes they were on and sometimes they were off.

When they were on, they spent most of their time together when she was not traveling with work.
Fantasia read Mrs. Cook’s Complaint against Mr. Cook for the first time yesterday. She knows some of the allegations in Mrs. Cook’s complaint are totally false. There are others she strongly doubts. There is plenty she does not know.

Fantasia is heartbroken and is sorry for any pain she may have caused.

Yesterday, she was totally overwhelmed by the lawsuit and the media attention. Last night, Fantasia was hospitalized. She took an overdose of aspirin and a sleep aid.

Her injuries are not life threatening. She was dehydrated and exhausted at the time. Fantasia is stable now. She will be released from the hospital soon. Fantasia is a fighter and a survivor. This is not the hardest thing Fantasia has endured.

Fantasia will be stronger, smarter, and better for it. Her work has always inspired her and served as a source of strength. Her new album, “Back To Me,” will be released on August 24th.

The lyrics to “I’m Here” say it best:
“I Believe I Have Inside Of Me
Everything That I Need To Live A Bountiful Life
With All The Love Inside Of Me
I’ll Stand As Tall As The Tallest Tree
And I’m Thankful For Each Day That I’m Given
Both The Easy And The Hard Ones I’m Livin’
But Most Of All
Yes, I’m Thankful For Lovin’ Who I Really Am”

Fantasia sends her praise to God and her eternal gratitude to her fans, friends, and family.

God is good.

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This is none of our business!!!!!! Let that lady sing her songs and live her life!! Sheesh!!!!

Darn FOOL!!!!

So this fool is dancing in the street && you guessed it was hit by a car!! Not just any car it was an ICE CREAM truck!!!! LOL aren't those trucks supposed to be going like 10 MPH??? lol Either way who cares why are you in the street doing your wack a** dances???? LMBO?

Slick em of Pretty Ricky caught snortin powder!!

This is sooooo sad to me!!! Jesus please take the wheel because this is just another sad young brother caught in the middle of being famous and living his dreams to being lost in the shuffle because he never really made it.
Dang!!!!! Hopefully he gets it together...

Summertime (Happy 4th)

Happy 4th of JULY!!!!!!!!!!!! Video of the day and summer be safe!!

BET Chris Brown's MJ tribute!!

I missed the tribute because of a delayed flight and traveling, but watching it on here is still the BEST!!!! He did KILL IT!!! Despite all the tears and whatever ANYONE has to say HE KILLED IT!!!!! MURDERED! *DEAD*

Lil Boosie possibly Indicted for MURDER???

Rapper Lil Boosie (real name Torrance Hatch) has been indicted for first degree murder.

Lil Boosie was indicted by a East Baton Rouge Parish grand jury early evening Thursday for the October 2009 shooting murder of Terry Boyd.

Boosie may receive the death penalty according to a district attorney.

The rap star is already incarcerated at Dixon Correctional Institute.

Six other men have also been indicted for their involvement in the murder of Boyd.

Adrian Pittman, 36, Jared Williams, 20, Kendrick Johnson, 19, Johnathan Rogers, 17 and Ryan “Sneaks” Carroll, 16, have all been charged with first degree murders.

Below is a summary of all the charge that Boosie faces.


• 1st Degree Murder of Terry Boyd, 35, shot to death inside his residence at 16837 Vermillion Drive on 10/21/09. The shots were fired from outside home through a window.

• 3 counts PWITD Narcotics (Schedule II-Codeine, Schedule I-Ecstacy and Schedule I-Marijuana)

• 3 counts Conspiracy to commit PWITD Narcotics

• 2 counts Conspiracy to Introduce Contraband into a Penal

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Drakes the truth but ummmm????

Why is dude about to cry over Drake's new cd??? Is it me or does he look like a B*tch right about now??? I mean Drake is the truth no doubt about it but forreal????

Drake n Nicki vs Ray J n Kim

My boy Drizzy Drake said something about the whole Lil Kim thing and I am so happy!! First off Nicki never said that she didn't get a bit of her style from Kim so while Ms. Plastic talking she needs to chilax and recognize!!!! and Ray J are you forreal??? You can't even sing the ONLY thing you have going for you is your looks... I mean your Brandy's Brother!!! And Ray of you were really Kim's friend you wouldn't let her walk out the house with that non-matching war paint she has on her face EVERYDAY!! Either way you already know I am a #1 Nicki Minaj fan!!!! Secondly Kim might think that Nicko "biting" her style but one things for sure Nicki's flow is way better!!!!! Hello, Good Morning!! Lastly Kim your days of being the "queen" are over when you became ms. Plastic!!!

What Drake said:

“I don’t give a f*ck what Lil’ Kim or nobody else talkin about, you’re tha baddest chick to ever run this sh*t!… I respect you too much, so I’m not gonna call you the baddest B*TCH in the game, I’m gonna say you’re the baddest WOMAN in the game.” After Drake dissed Lil’ Kim, Nicki turned around laughing, then came back and hugged him. He told her “I love you.” Then he left the stage.

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Lil Kim (Girl PULEEZE)

People are saying that Lil Kim was trying to diss Nicki when she took the wig off and said she's above all of this. She's on another level?? Yeah right girl Nicki is way rawer then you, and she isn't all knifed up! She definitely doesn't wear make-up that's way to light for the rest of her body! Get a life your a loser has been and you will NEVER be relevant again.

Things that make you go________________???????

This is for his new movie he's playing a cancer patient!! I just want to know his weight loss secrets lol (Wink)

YUCKY!!!!!!!!!!!!! No Commentary needed!

OMGSH!!!!!!!!!!!! SOOOOOO your just gone be peppermint with a full lace cat suit on??!!! AM I BEING PUNKED? Is Ashton coming out anytime soon??

This is a Jacksonville strip club LMBO!!!! The fact that it come's from Duval County makes me KNOW it's not a joke!!!!




Soooooo she's just gone get a tattoo saying FOLLOW HER???? This has got to be a joke! I would hope this fool wouldn't get a tattoo wanting people to follow her. I'm so dissappointed!! Stupidity is contagious stay away!!!

Hope for the youth (Part 2)

Here are the parental reactions to the children's poll they did earlier on CNN (Click HERE to view earlier story. Some of the parents cry while other's are proud! Either way I do think everything starts at home but some kids are influenced by friends and their surroundings. Although it would be easy to blame the parents we ALL have a contribution.

7 Year old -- Tragedy

This story really touches my soul!!! Like Plies says F*ck police cuz all of them problems! I wouldn't say all of them are but more than half of them are greedy sneaky shady people and I don't like them. To many bad past experiences with my family and friends. This is a prime example I mean really what the hell??? At first they were saying that the grandmother came at the police officer and the gun just went off. (Yeah right) Now I have heard that the First 48 were filming and they (the police) asked the First 48 producer's to destroy the tape or give it to them! SERIOUSLY?!?!?!?! Is that what we're doing? UGH!!!! Police think because they have guns and the "law" on their side this is how they can do people. I would like to think it will stop but I am way more realistic...

Hope for the youth??

Wow this says a lot about the time's we are living in now! I am so sad to say that this is how most people think! The way our next generation is going I am super nervous.

Say there ain't no hope for the youth and the truth is it ain't no hope for tha future... {2pac Keep ya head up}


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I found Lil Kim again... {WOOOOOWW!!}

Diddy looking like wow are you even the same person? You look DISGUSTING!!!
Still wearing that foundation that doesn't match the rest of your body huh? Wooow!!!
Girl what's T? You got a bow in your car? I mean your whole face looks plastic and filthy!